Posts Tagged ‘my ummah’

Bismillah,

I just wanted to start out by saying barakallahu feekum for all the kind words and du’as I’ve received. I see them all and I am not replying on purpose because I have to get this off of my chest.  I don’t want to be distracted by the finer details or lengthy side explanations before I have just let it all out of my system. I’ve always been a private person, never discussing my private life, my marriage or what goes on with my family with others.  When I found this blog, I saw an opportunity to vent about those things that weighed heavily on my conscience, my struggles, my problems, without dishonoring my husband or my loved ones. 

I never had anyone I could discuss this issue with.  I always felt that people would be judgemental or look down on him for being flawed or me for being shallow and impatient. It has gone on too long and now  and I feel like shaitan has me confused.  I feel like the lone sheep left to the marauding wolf.  I feel safe here amongst anonymous friends.  Safe enough to bring things I feel to the light and get the perspective I need to move forward.  Like polygyny, I’m sure I’m not the only one who has been through or is going through this.  Maybe my affair will give someone else the courage to face reality and get help.  I pray for the good and Allah’s guidance for us all.

Khayr Insha’allah

 

An interesting dialog is going on over at http://www.thefiks.org take a look and tell me what you think.  Be sure to check out the comments section where the conversation continues….

 

Can We Talk Show Polygamy, What’s the Big Deal?.

Mourning….

Posted: May 9, 2009 in Uncategorized
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Bosnia

Chechnya

Palestine

Iraq

Somalia

Sudan

West Africa

Afganistan

Pakistan

 

Who’s Next?

What’s Left?

It’s been a long time since I have made an update here.  I’ve been sifting through new feelings, new events and even pondered starting a new blog… pondering doing something new.

But I realised, this is all me.  All my experiences. Nothing new at all really. So on that note.  Here’s with new with me and my crew.

My husband is scared of polygyny.  He was so disappointed by the turn of events in the last episode, he is having a hard time trusting another situation.  He (we) put so much into it, only to have it fail…fast.  I persuaded him to have another sitdown, but he sabotaged it on purpose…. lololol.  He highlighted  all of his bad points. So we have agreed to not discuss it.

I am slowy getting over my anger at world events. I’m still angry about it but I believe I have found some balance and comfort in the knowledge that Allah is in control and we are his slaves and he does with us as he pleases. I find comfort in the knowledge that the lives lost are not in vain Allah tells us in his book of truth and guidance:

 O ye who believe! seek help with patient perseverance and prayer; for Allah is with those who patiently persevere And say not of those who are slain in the way of Allah. “They are dead.” Nay, they are living, though ye perceive (it) not. Be sure we shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods or lives or the fruits (of your toil), but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere, Who say, when afflicted with calamity: “To Allah We belong, and to Him is our return”:- They are those on whom (Descend) blessings from Allah, and Mercy, and they are the ones that receive guidance.  Surah Baqarah 153-157.

So masha’allah. I am content with what he has decreed for us. For our ummah, and I patiently wait saying “ina’lillahi wa ina’illayhi rajiun”.

New topics to be discussed: Hijrah, Make-up and Marriage bi’ithnillah.

Khayr Insha’allah

Oh, So That’s It….

Posted: January 31, 2009 in Uncategorized
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So, Israel stops bombing during the Presdential Inauguration (how considerate of them) and then without even a new excuse resumes bombing Palestine after Obama’s first day on the job.

And with everyone so enamoured and engrossed in what Mr. Black Pres is doing, we forget about the poor innocent people (however many are left) who are suffering.

Don’t Forget About Gaza…

Do ye make the giving of drink to pilgrims, or the maintenance of the Sacred Mosque, equal to (the pious service of) those who believe in Allah and the Last Day, and strive with might and main in the cause of Allah. They are not comparable in the sight of Allah. and Allah guides not those who do wrong.  Qur’an 9:19

The question remains. If Saudi is the richest and most powerful muslim country in the world, the protectors and benefactors of our deen.  Supposedly the only government that operates (closely) to the sharia of Allah and his Messenger (saw).  Why have they not gathered the muslims under one banner.  Why have they not established one nation of muslims, with one leader?  Why do they do nothing while islamic nations struggle under the oppression of famine and war? Palaces or military bases, yachts or warships? Lavish princes or the populace? What would you do?

The Biography of Saudi’s Royal Family…

 

But is it really Sharia?  Are the laws of Allah really being put into place, here?

House of Saud… A glimpse of saudi government.

Allah and his Messenger tell us in an authentic Hadith: If you see a wrong then change it with your hand and if you are not able to do that then change it with your tongue and if you cannot then hate it in your heart and verily this is the weakest of Belief.”

Ponder Allah’s signs to the truth…And pray for guidance.

Ques 1. Why is there no Khalifah after all these years and why are no steps being taken to get one?

Ques 2. How can the largest, richest reiligion (beside the vatican people) not have an army or any means to help the nation of muslims out of the many global crisises it has been afflicted with.

Ques 3. Why were foriegn powers allowed to build a military presence in all the key areas of the islamic world like a game of chess gone terribly wrong?

Ques 4. How many muslims have to die before something is done?

Ques 5. When the meccans gathered to massacre the Prophet and his companions, did Allah command him to sit quietly and make du’a?

Ques 6. How can they sit in their palaces and on their yachts and watch the carnage, without witholding ONE barrel of oil or expelling ONE diplomatic presence of those at fault from their countries or closing down one military supply route that they gave permission to come through Muslim land to feed foreign soldiers and make sure they have enough fire-power to kill us all?

Ques 7. When will the sleeping giant awake?